A bit better today. Went to a football match this evening, and I always seem to find it easier when I've got something like that to occupy myself with, rather than just lazing around watching TV or something.
The general feeling now though is, not so much that something's missing, more that I'm missing out on something in life I found pleasurable. It's just such a shame that smoking is so damaging to your health. However, that feeling is still being outweighed by how much better I feel by not smoking so my resolve is still there.
I just wish I knew when I will start to feel "normal" again though. I certainly couldn't bear to go through the rest of my life feeling like this.
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It is akin to losing a good friend if you think about it. Whther it was good times or bad times, the cigarette was always in the mix to share those times with you, even to the point of convincing yourself that cigarettes somehow got you through some tough times.
I think we give them to much credit for being a worthy companion, and that is what we must overcome in our heads. They had become such an intregal part of our lives that it obviously is going to seem as if something is missing, and that is smoking for the multitudes of reasons.
But just as it is so hard to let go when we lose a Loved one, we somehow translate that loss of smoking on an emotional level, and miss it.
You are right, it was pleasurable, but at what cost? I hear Heroin is some pretty amazing stuff too, so why are we not running out and doing that for pleasure? Because we know the horrible effects of it and how addictive it is. So, should we not view smoking in the same light of a Dangerous Drug to be avoided at all costs?
I think we are still fairly early in our "recovery" and have to keep that in mind. I can only go by the experience of those I know who have quit and they say it does get better. We just need to have that faith and belief that we are going to win the battle and anything we set our minds to do, can be done. It may take some work, and understanding that makes the task a little more tolerable.
The alternative is to run back to smoking and how depressed do you think you would be then? No, we all got ourselves into this and we are all going to have to get ourselves out of it. Having the support here does make the assignment easier and thanks again for the effort in putting up this blog Pete. You are making a difference and you can not underestimate that, or ignore the contribution to other people's attempt to rid themselves of this scourge.
You're right again as usual. I paricularly like your thought that we are still early in our recovery. One problem is perhaps that we expect too much too soon. A bit like deciding to learn the guitar and expecting to play like Jimi Hendrix in a couple of weeks! This is why most people stop learning the guitar and why people start smoking again. Because it takes much longer than they first thought!
Good thought, and I'll keep it in mind. Now, where's that guitar of mine that I bought a million years ago and never learnt to play properly.....
Yeah, and remember Hendrix played a right handed guitar upside down and left handed!\
Haven't seen the tally of how much you have saved. I remember my Dad opened a bank savings account strictly for money he saved from not smoking. I am thinking of doing that and doing something big with the money after a year. I have always wanted to visit China and maybe get a massage by twin Chinese women while I am there! Hey, we can all have our drems right?
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