Hi folks, yes I’m still here. Sorry it’s been so long but I seemed to lose my way a bit as far as this diary was concerned.
Anyway, I’m still not smoking and I think the depression is a bit better too. There was a comment the other day that nicotine itself was an anti-depressant. This got me thinking so I did a bit of research.
Sure enough it’s true. Without realising it, smokers are self-medicating themselves with an anti-depressant. It’s no wonder we feel miserable when we stop smoking and it explains why we reach for the fags when we are upset, stressed, etc.
I even read an article somewhere that recommended taking the very anti-depressant pill that I’m taking alongside Champix! If only I’d known that from the start, maybe it would have been a little easier. I think that people should be made more aware of this before they stop smoking.
As far as the smoking itself is concerned, I know I’m still not out of the woods. It still seems to me that nothing will ever be quite as good again.
For example, I was thinking that soon it should start to get a bit warmer in this country, with spring around the corner, closely followed by summer. It makes everyone feel better when it’s not so cold. But then I thought “but it won’t be so good being outside in the nice weather without a fag!”.
Another example was a friend (who smokes) said how great it was when he was on holiday recently (with the kids, etc) to get half an hour to himself with a cup of coffee and to read the paper. He didn’t need to mention the smoking, but it was implied. When I thought about myself being in that situation, I couldn’t imagine even wanting to sit down with a coffee and a paper if I couldn’t smoke at the same time!
It’s things like that that still make it seem so difficult. I’m sure you all know what I mean and I’d be interested to hear if any of you have had similar experiences and how you have dealt with them.
I’ll try and start writing a bit more often again now. Maybe not every day, but at least once a week.
Saved so far £618.75 (where is it all??!!?!)
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He's back - what a champion.
Day 51 here - yes I said smoking had anti-depressant qualities - it does - a lot.
Have not been this depressed in years, since I lost my first girlfriend way back when. Some days are diamonds, some are not.
Hang in there Pete - Steve
Fantastic to hear you are still smoke free Pete! Thanks for passing along the info about nicotine being anti depressant. Makes alot of sense.
As to getting through those tough situations, man I know all too well. I think you know it will be better to be breathing in clean air than to be sucking in smoke. Like I said before, we got ourselves into this spot and it is up to us to get out of it. The alternative is not such a good path to go down. Yeah, I wish there was a safe cigarette, and I have been hearing about them trying to do just that. I will believe it when I see it. Cigarette companies have always used false advertisemnet to hook people and to keep them hooked.
Anyway, great to see you back. My Dad opened a separate savings account for his smoke money when he quit. Seemed to motivate him quite a bit and that was 30 years ago! Can't imagine the savings now.
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