I've now gone for over 2 months without a drop(?) of smoke passing my lips. I think that's pretty good and I didn't really think I could do it.
I'm finding it difficult knowing what to write on this blog at the moment. My feelings are very mixed and confused so I haven't really got anything enlightening to say.
Earlier today, I thought to myself that I didn't miss smoking anymore, so I've just now got the depression to deal with. But then this evening, I felt that I really wanted a smoke! I then thought how nice it will be to eventually get to the point where you don't think about smoking all the time! I wish I knew when that time is going to arrive.
I hope everyone's still reading this and still off the fags. I'm sorry that I haven't been writing so much lately, but I think my state of mind has a lot to do with that. Hopefully things will start to improve fairly soon.
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Hey Pete! Congrats on the milestone. I know what you mean about thinking you are totally free from the urges, and then one creeps up on you. I am nearing 3 months and still have that happen. You kind of expect it after a while and remind yourself to keep your guard up.
I think we who are still in early recovery are still having to adjust to life without the smokes. Sometimes when I see someone smoking I alternately envy them or pity them. That is kind of funny how we view other people smoking as time goes by. We used to be part of that "fellowship", and now we are on the outside, or is it the other way around? In any event, I think your observation is keen about going 2 months and still having the urge. This awareness will go a long way to keeping you and the rest of us smoke free as time goes by.
As to your questioning when you will not have the urge, all I can say is that you seemed to go most of that day without it, and it wasn't a big deal to get over it.
As Robert Plant sang from his solo album, "Little by little, I can breathe again!".
Take Care
Steve From USA
Steve from Aus here again.
Well done champion. Hang in there with the depression. I am suffering depression too at day 43 but I think it is clearly related to the "lost" syndrome eg I have lost my best buddy.
I go from bad to really bad, and then shocking, and then my two year old jumps all over me laughing and I think - what an idiot!
OK, I love my booze still, have not even tried to cut down despite the best will and I also love my food which, by the way is starting to taste ok. Am back at the gym and starting to feel really good working out- so there is a trade off- but I am not going to lie. Each year my wife and I go away with two other couples for Easter. We love it, plenty of good food, wine and, until now cigarettes- at least for moi. Nothing so enjoyable in the Aussie bush in a nice 5 star hotel telling tales around the fire. Well this year, is my year to enjoy the lot, without excusing myself for a break each half hour - hour.
I am sure I can get through it. It's stupid but now even when I want to smoke I cannot imagine myself going back to the drudgery. I dream about it, often in fact like last night when I was smoking with my dad, who loved to smoke once, but that period is over for me now.
So keep at it Pete , you have helped me enormously to not cave in. It is so damn easy to do so, but alas, I will not. I am going to Australian football Thursday -its the start of our new winter season. Many of my mates smoke it will be a big test!But I will pass.
Hey Pete! You still there man? Just let us know you are o.k. We are all holding our breath!
Pete. One of best mates father in laws (who he is very close to) got diagnosed with lung cancer last week. Prognosis - one year at best. Has 7 grandkids.
He is 59. Tell us you are still on the train line. I know it's a complete bugger.
Cheers Steve AUST
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