Well, isn't it strange. After saying things were getting easier, I had a pretty bad time of it tonight and I really wanted one. It wouldn't go away for ages and was awful. Why oh why won't this stop? At least I managed to get through it though which is a good thing.
I very nearly went to the shop for a cigar, but one of the things that stopped me was that not only would I be letting myself down, but also anyone reading this who is finding it inspiring.
Must keep going, hopefully it will be a bit better tomorrow.
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Good for you Pete! There are good days and not so good days, but remember you are changing patterns of behavior that have been ingrained in your life for years. This change is not always so easy. Give yourself some credit for getting over the latest hurdle and realize you are ever so slowly building on your recovery. And this is truly a recovery from drug addiction. And with any addiction, one must always be aware of triggers that might lead to a relapse.
And about the analogy of your old girlfriend, I think it is a great one. Being around your girlfriend for a length of time is like being around cigarettes. There is a psychological dependency that develops there and when you withdraw either from your life, then you miss it. What I think is important is that what is mostly remembered is only the good times with either and with some honest reflection, you realize that just is not the case. If so, then both would still be there in your life!
Let's keep building on this recovery and keep healing our bodies more each day.
I am not going to smoke today.
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