A few more pangs again today. I'm not sure if it's my imagination, but the pangs seem to be getting stronger lately. I thought this was supposed to get easier!
I was driving home from a football match this evening, and thinking about getting home. Then I got that horrible feeling that I think we all know about. There's something missing! It was like the "looking forward to getting home" feeling was meaningless, because ... there's something missing. "There's no treats to look forward to" I thought to myself.
I'm sure that this must be one of the main reasons for people failing in their quests to stop smoking. I mean, it can't be the nicotine can it? I'm not taking any Nicotine Replacement Therapy (Champix is not NRT) and all the nicotine is supposed to have gone in a few days and I haven't had any for a month now!
So what is it that causes this horrible feeling of emptiness? I'm afraid I don't know the answer, but I'm going to have a good think about it. The only thing I can think of for now is my "ex-girlfriend analogy" that I first mentioned in this blog some time ago. I suppose we get used to something and when it's suddenly not there we get an empty feeling, or a feeling that something is missing. I'm sure it will disappear over time, but I wish it would hurry up get a move on!
If I can think of anything else then I'll obviously post it on here. In the meantime has anyone got any ideas about it and how best to handle it?
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Showing posts with label Losing a friend. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Losing a friend. Show all posts
Wednesday, 13 February 2008
Saturday, 9 February 2008
Stop Smoking Day 29 - Saturday February 9th 2008
Oops, missed another day of blogging yesterday, sorry about that.
I'm pleased to say that I've been feeling much much better over the last couple of days. I've come to the conclusion that my depression was simply a normal process in stopping smoking. A bit like losing a girlfriend I suppose (an anology that I've mentioned before). However, this girlfriend was trying to kill me!
Looking forward to tomorrow, as Sundays always seem to be good days for me. I'm really convinced that I've finally "cracked it" and I will never smoke again. However, I must be careful not to get too complacent, as I know how easy it is to slip up.
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I'm pleased to say that I've been feeling much much better over the last couple of days. I've come to the conclusion that my depression was simply a normal process in stopping smoking. A bit like losing a girlfriend I suppose (an anology that I've mentioned before). However, this girlfriend was trying to kill me!
Looking forward to tomorrow, as Sundays always seem to be good days for me. I'm really convinced that I've finally "cracked it" and I will never smoke again. However, I must be careful not to get too complacent, as I know how easy it is to slip up.
Saved so far £239.25
Monday, 28 January 2008
Day 16 - Sunday January 27th 2008
A bit of an uneventful day really. I managed to keep myself busy for most of the day so I didn't think about smoking too much. I'll even dare to say, it's starting to feel a little easier at last.
When I look back on some of my previous posts, it reminds me how bad it was. I think when I've tried giving up before, I've forgotten how bad it was for the first few days and it just seemed like it wasn't getting any better. When you're able to look back it does prove that it gets easier, even if it is a slow process.
I've had a couple of comments about yesterday's "brilliant revalation" and it seems the general opinion is that it's not so brilliant after all! Oh well, I'll just keep plodding on.
Now that I know people are reading this, I'd be interested to know what folks think about my earlier ex-girlfriend analogy. If you missed it, I first wrote about it on Day 6.
I'd also like to hear from anyone else who's reading this and is finding it helpful.
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When I look back on some of my previous posts, it reminds me how bad it was. I think when I've tried giving up before, I've forgotten how bad it was for the first few days and it just seemed like it wasn't getting any better. When you're able to look back it does prove that it gets easier, even if it is a slow process.
I've had a couple of comments about yesterday's "brilliant revalation" and it seems the general opinion is that it's not so brilliant after all! Oh well, I'll just keep plodding on.
Now that I know people are reading this, I'd be interested to know what folks think about my earlier ex-girlfriend analogy. If you missed it, I first wrote about it on Day 6.
I'd also like to hear from anyone else who's reading this and is finding it helpful.
Saved so far £132.00
Tuesday, 22 January 2008
Day 11 - Tuesday January 22nd 2008
Just received my first comments! Thanks Donna, an inspiration to carry this on because maybe I can help someone else too!
My stomach feels a lot better today so I think maybe it wasn't a kidney thing after all, which is nice! (Still not sure what it is though, it still hurts a bit).
As far as the smoking is going, I'm still finding it quite difficult at times. I know for sure that one day I won't even think about it, but I just can't imagine that day at the moment.
At one point, I even thought "I've got a bad stomach, I'll have a smoke to make up for it"! That is just stupid, and it's the same old thing that's happened to me before when I've tried to give up smoking. I'm just looking for an excuse to start again! There'll always be reasons like that, but it's those moments when it's important to be even stronger.
I keep thinking of the ex-girlfriend thing still and I'm sure that it's helping.
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My stomach feels a lot better today so I think maybe it wasn't a kidney thing after all, which is nice! (Still not sure what it is though, it still hurts a bit).
As far as the smoking is going, I'm still finding it quite difficult at times. I know for sure that one day I won't even think about it, but I just can't imagine that day at the moment.
At one point, I even thought "I've got a bad stomach, I'll have a smoke to make up for it"! That is just stupid, and it's the same old thing that's happened to me before when I've tried to give up smoking. I'm just looking for an excuse to start again! There'll always be reasons like that, but it's those moments when it's important to be even stronger.
I keep thinking of the ex-girlfriend thing still and I'm sure that it's helping.
Saved so far £90.75
Friday, 18 January 2008
Day 7 - Friday January 18th 2008
Yesterday was a whole lot better than the day before, so I'm feeling very positive about today. I think the ex-girlfiend analogy is helping a lot. I don't know why I didn't think of it before!
At the end of today, it'll be one week since my last smoke which I believe is quite an achievement and one to be proud of.
It's the afternoon now and I'm struggling a bit again. I keep having those urges, can't wait until they go!
Still had some of those nasty urges this evening, but still just about manageable.
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At the end of today, it'll be one week since my last smoke which I believe is quite an achievement and one to be proud of.
It's the afternoon now and I'm struggling a bit again. I keep having those urges, can't wait until they go!
Still had some of those nasty urges this evening, but still just about manageable.
Saved so far: £57.75
Thursday, 17 January 2008
Day 6 - Thursday January 17th 2008
Yesterday evening was terrible! I felt very depressed and couldn't be bothered to do anything. That's why I'm writing this today rather than yesterday. I feel a bit better today (although it's only 10am) so let's hope that yesterday was the peak!
It's now 14:30 and I just had a really bad craving. I was thinking of going to buy 10, just having a couple now and saving the rest for future emergencies. That would have been stupid wouldn't it?
Anyway, I had a cup of coffee instead and the craving seems to have gone a bit now.
It's the evening now and nowhere near as bad as yesterday. I was just watching something on BBC4 which had The Jam on it (a pop group from the 80s if you're too young to remember).
I immediately thought "I used to smoke then!". Now, I remember thinking the same sort of thing years ago when I had "lost in love", you know, you've been dumped and you see something and you think "I was still with her then". Everything seems against you and the world might as well end. Well it wasn't and it didn't, and when I think back to those moments now, I think what a fool I was.
Imagine if you could have got rid of those awful feelings by nipping down to the shop and buying her back for a fiver! Sure it would have solved the short-term problems, but I'm so glad I wasn't able to do it, as my life would have been so much worse in the longer term.
I'm now able to liken the experience to cigarettes. They've dumped me so I'll have to get over it and move on. So I will and my life will be better for it in the long-term.
Saved so far £49.50
It's now 14:30 and I just had a really bad craving. I was thinking of going to buy 10, just having a couple now and saving the rest for future emergencies. That would have been stupid wouldn't it?
Anyway, I had a cup of coffee instead and the craving seems to have gone a bit now.
It's the evening now and nowhere near as bad as yesterday. I was just watching something on BBC4 which had The Jam on it (a pop group from the 80s if you're too young to remember).
I immediately thought "I used to smoke then!". Now, I remember thinking the same sort of thing years ago when I had "lost in love", you know, you've been dumped and you see something and you think "I was still with her then". Everything seems against you and the world might as well end. Well it wasn't and it didn't, and when I think back to those moments now, I think what a fool I was.
Imagine if you could have got rid of those awful feelings by nipping down to the shop and buying her back for a fiver! Sure it would have solved the short-term problems, but I'm so glad I wasn't able to do it, as my life would have been so much worse in the longer term.
I'm now able to liken the experience to cigarettes. They've dumped me so I'll have to get over it and move on. So I will and my life will be better for it in the long-term.
Saved so far £49.50
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